Always seeking acceptance and love but it’s never found,
The feeling of the pain deep inside shows that the heart is bound.
Bound by expectations, truth, and lies,
Can the solution be something that a person buys?
Can a heart be filled from without or within,
To do so with it bound by pain and lies only causes misery and chagrin.
The words of hope blocked by pain and fear,
The feeling like you’re all all alone and no one is near.
This fear holds the heart in its icy and cruel grip,
To wrestle with it may cause the heart to rip.
But that pain can be replaced with joy and mirth,
Once the mind and the heart begin to see the worth.
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I Thought I was Your Angel by Broken101, literature
Literature
I Thought I was Your Angel
Fall to the floor
No words can reach me
You can't hurt me anymore
So keep yelling words
They only spin around me
I no longer hear you
But I'll just keep pretending
Pretending that I'm not slowly dying
That I don't need you anymore
And I'll just keep wondering..
Where are you now..?
How did we grow apart?
All I have now are burnt memories
And I can't stop thinking of you
You made me who I used to be
I thought I'd tell you,
I'm sorry I broke us
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything
I can't even convince myself,
That if it wasn't for you
I'd never know who I was
Because I still don't know who I am...
I told you I didn
Hair soaked
Clothes drenched
It almost feels like I'm in the rain
But I'm curled up in my bed
Without you
You're the whole reason I'm like this
Or is it really my fault?
Eyes never dry
Body never stops shaking
Stop telling me lies
That you still love me
That you'll come back
We'll be together again
Because you know what?
That's just bullshit
I've hard those one too many times
And I'm not going to believe you
Not now
You broke my heart
Can you hear it shattering?
Oh wait...I forgot you can't
You no longer care to hear
My words fall upon deaf ears
As well as my screams
I tried to make you stay
But you just turned your b
Nothing dulls the pain
Not even this knife
Your words are engraved upon my skin
You voice trapped in my memory
No matter how much I rip my skin,
Your words still remain
No matter how many times I lose my mind,
Your voice is still there
My body goes through the motions
But really I'm a thousand miles away
In your arms
Just like I always wanted to be
You lips meeting mine
Then I hear someone calling me name
I realize it's not you
That I'm only dreaming again
I can't pretend anymore
I break down
My heart shatters
I know you're no longer mine
That you'll never be mine again
I am forced to remember
Remember what we had
What
as soft as
misting rain whispering
at the window
as straightforward as
warm blankets on cold
Sunday mornings
as simple as
cereal for
breakfast
I am...
as
a spider hangs outside
my office window
a fat garden spider,
black and yellow,
that students mistake
for a Halloween decoration
they stare past me
to get a better look
then stop talking, their
eyes growing large
forgetting why they
came to see me in their
sudden need to warn me
that there's a giant
arachnid behind me
but I just smile
and tell them not to worry
she's on the outside
of the glass
I'm on the inside
looking out
every morning
she rebuilds her web
from the damages
of the night
how calmly she
clings to the fine threads
she weaves, unperturbed
by wind or rain or the
passing curious
she minds her nest
the years
hang on my
bones
like winter
on the vine
my once-supple
limbs shake
in the
tempest of
your discontent
my sere trunk
cracks beneath
the weather
of your
wrath
you plow
me into
this hard
earth one
last time
and my
roots are
finally
torn free
(of you)
now I settle
like dust
in this fallow
field and wait
for spring
Skin tingling
Hands exploring everywhere
I'm shaking
Whispering for you to stop
But you just tell me to calm down
That it wont hurt
My hands rest on your chest
Pushing the best I can
But you don't budge
You just chuckle
I'm screaming at myself
I know I have to get out of here now
You unhook here
Unbutton there
You're pulling and pushing
And I'm starting to lose it
Tears forming in my eyes
But I doubt you notice
It's too dark for you to see
I just keep hoping you'll stop
You'll understand
But I'm getting weaker by the second
Fear falling away
You have complete control over this
Over me
And I hate it
I want you to stop
Words fly away
I wish to capture them
All the ones you told me...
Put them in a box
So I'll never forget
But I can lose them
Lose them in the mess of us
Though when you look at me
Eyes penetrating my skin
Lips forming a smile so slight
My mind races with thoughts
The thoughts that should be erased
My eyes watch you
Every graceful motion
I can't look away
Until you say my name
Then I'm captivated
Captivated in your voice
Soft like velvet
Cold like ice
But your says things
Things I don't want to hear
Did you just say that...
Again..?
Apparently so
Because your moving
Moving in ways I hate
Ways I hate to remember
Back
White, blank stone
Covered in luscious blacks and greys
Color has been hidden away
Rotted, dead bark
Falls again into nothing redefined
Nothing more then the blood on my hands
Or the water leaking from my heart
Scratched, shattered metal
The reflection of memories
Memories that have crumbled
Forgiveness
Comes like the high tide
The high I no longer feel
Forgetting
Never comes to me
Just like your love
Respect
Disappeared for you like the glow
The glow that made me feel alive
Trust
Something that comes and goes
Just like our seasons
Rain
Appears with your silhouette
The silhouette that plagues me
Yesterday
I couldn't